My thoughts on this start of Lent


I have to admit, I was really looking forward to Lent beginning. I have resolved to do some things this year that I pray will improve me: spiritually, emotionally, and physically. 

And then, at about 11:30 last night, I got a very painful headache. It’s much better now but is still slightly lingering since 15 hours ago. It’s annoying. And a little scary. And truthfully, has pushed my focus on Ash Wednesday mostly out of my mind. Which is part of why I resolved to sit here right now and right this post… so at least a little part of me can focus on it today. 

It doesn’t help that Henry is sick either.  😥 

We’re basically a mess over here. 

But… I stop and think about it and know: God meets us where we are.

My kid has a low fever and has been coughing for the last three days or so. I’ve been losing sleep listening to those coughs at night. 

My forehead is aching slightly for the last several hours and, as soon as I finish this post, I’ll be crawling into my own bed until little cries wake me up in about an hour and a half. Babies needing bottles and diaper changes. 

God is here. In this moment. He knows what I need. And, seriously, I have no idea how people get through these days (and worse) without knowing He’s got their back. Thank You, Jesus. Thank You, Father. Thank You, Spirit. 

I am thankful…. simply for the fact that there is a relationship to be had with this Almighty God. That He hears me. He knows me. He feels for the day I’m having. 

Maybe these words don’t really have much to do with Lent… but it’s where I am today. I am thankful. 

And, just to keep slightly more on topic, here’s what I’ve chosen to do this Lent. These are what a lot of people would likely label “not your typical Lenten promises,” but they are things I’ve contemplated and realized I need to improve myself, my relationship with God, and my relationship with my friends & family.

  1. showeringShower at least three times a week. Close friends of mine might be grossed out to know this is not usual for me. (Sorry!) I think part of it is my struggle with anxiety and depression but showering has simply NOT been a priority. Eat or shower? Eat. Shower or nap? Nap. And then, the last few weeks, I’ve discovered how much better I feel when I do shower (and blown dry my hair). I feel refreshed. I feel more confident. I feel more alive. So I’ll be doing that… regularly. 
  2. Eat within two hours of waking and continue to eat regularly through the day. I’m sure I’m not the only mom that this happens to, but there are days that 1 PM rolls around and I realize that the only thing I’ve put into my system is coffee. Not good. I know that spiritually, emotionally, and physically, I need food. I get caught up in feeding the babies, scrounging breakfast for Henry, putting clean dishes from last night away… and I forget myself. Not good. Need to focus on taking care of myself so I can take better care of others. 
  3. FN-FACEBOOKNo Facebook on my phone or iPad. And only checking Facebook on my computer once per day. Even removing the Facebook app from my phone didn’t work. I need to be stricter with myself. I waste too much time on Facebook (when, hey! I could be showering or eating!)

These are all big changes for me so, at least right now, I’m not resolving to give up anything else. Usually I give up sour cream or soda. This year, I’m going to resist adding more things to “give up” and work more on these self-improvements. 

So… here we go! I wish everyone a blessed and fruitful Lent. 


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Hi, I'm Lauren. Mommy to two, nanny to two, wife, teacher, homemaker, Catholic, artist, writer, friend, sister, daughter. Here you'll find everything from updates about our family, info and advice about parenting and homemaking, or pretty much anything else I feel like writing. Welcome!