Blogging is boggling.

I have long harbored a desire to write a blog… and failed miserably approximately four times now. So many friends of mine have great blogs and it boggles my mind how these amazing women balance caring for their children, running their household, and blog (regularly) at the same time. In so many ways I feel so incredibly unequipped for the life I lead. I also feel like I’m failing at life in many ways. So here I am again… it’s been over a year¬†since I last blogged here, on my latest blog site. But I’m trying again. I really want to make this work.

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t think I’m failing at everything. My almost two year old son is the most amazing little boy I could ever ask for… seriously, I don’t know how I got so lucky. He is joyful, silly, helpful and intelligent. I figure I must have done something right by him. Okay, yeah, he’s only (not even) two… but there comes a point as a mom where you just stop and think: this is hard, but I’ve got this. (I thought the same when giving birth… that was before I pushed for two hours… makes me laugh in hindsight. But that’s another story for another day.)

I am not perfect, but I feel comfortable in my own skin as a mom… in a way I’ve never felt about, well, anything else I’ve ever done. Juggling the tears, the sneezes, the laughter, the fevers, the dirty diapers, the yogurt smeared all over the table (not to mention the toddler’s face)… I rarely feel overwhelmed as a mom. Which is great. The problem is: I feel overwhelmed about almost everything else. My marriage, the laundry, finances, my choice in college degree that I made eleven years ago…. ugh. It’s actually probably no wonder I’ve never succeeded at blogging because I think doing so stirs up these “other things” and I’d much rather sit in front of the TV and “veg out” than think about those things.

But it doesn’t have to be that way.

I know this.

I can blog about being a mom (and a nanny), about running my household, and all those day-to-day things… and maybe tackle these bigger things every so often.

But not today.

Today I’m just going to give myself a chance to catch up on blogging about mommyhood…. and leave the heavy stuff for another time.

Yay blogging. And yay trying to start blogging (again). Here we go…!


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Hi, I'm Lauren. Mommy to two, nanny to two, wife, teacher, homemaker, Catholic, artist, writer, friend, sister, daughter. Here you'll find everything from updates about our family, info and advice about parenting and homemaking, or pretty much anything else I feel like writing. Welcome!